confusion

I'M SICK OF THIS!
i'm sick of myself.
i'm sick of always finding myself back in this place...

God is breaking through me but i don't like it. the devil is attacking me and it feels like i'm just letting him. i don't like that EVEN more. i hate this enemy that we have! it seems like he knows me so well and can mess with me without me even noticing.

i'm totally at a place of brokenness, where love and confusion collide. i feel God's love but then i don't. i feel like i'm faking it but then i don't. i can't do this on my own! GOD HELP ME!!! pick me up out of the miry clay and set my feet on a rock. i want a new song to sing. songs about your love and your forgiveness.

only You can save me.