contentment

i looked up this word (actually content) on dictionary.com and this is what it said: satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else. let's break it down...

"satisfied with what one is" - no

i'm 23 years old. i haven't graduated from college and i'm not sure when that will happen. i'm working daycare basically and i can't afford to live on my own.

"or has" - not really

i'm financially drowning.

"not wanting more or anything else" - nope

i DO want more! not like more money (well, kind of). i just want more of life!

sometimes i wish i could pick up my life and move it somewhere else. i wish i had new friends, a new job... a new life. but then i think about the reality and that "dream" quickly dies. i think about how hard it would be to pick up and move somewhere new. how hard it would be to make new friend and how i don't think that i could do it. but something's just not right here. 

after all this thought i'm quickly reminded of a little verse in Hebrews. 

"be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'"    CONVICTION!

God, what do i do?