3 days...

Christmas is in 3 days and it still hasn't hit me yet. The last few years or so have all been the same. I don't really look forward to Christmas at all anymore. I don't want to label myself as a scrooge but that's the only word I can think of.

Here's the deal... Christmas is a family holiday. I have a family just like everyone else but it's not the family that most people would think of. It's my church family. All of those people have blood families to celebrate Christmas with and I feel alone. So this year I'm not really doing Christmas in the standard sense, I'm going out and serving instead. My dad and my brother are going up to visit my grandma and I'm thinking of visiting my mom's side of the family for a little bit. I'm a little scared though because I haven't talked to most of them in a few years (long story). This should be an interesting holiday season.